Singing

It's scary isn't it?

I've never thought of what I will do if one day I lose my voice.

It's something we always take for granted.

I can imagine just how helpless he is feeling,
being unable to speak, much less sing.

What will I do if one day I can't sing anymore?
I really don't know.

Recover soon will ya?
My mind is already starting to run wild with ominous possibilities.
I'm such a positive person, aren't I? (lol)

I'm imagining how you must have felt then,
and how you're feeling now.

I can't imagine you not singing anymore.
Somehow hearing your songs drives home the possibility that one day I may never hear you sing again.

Everyone's having ominous thoughts, aren't they?
But you'll get better.

That's what I'm believing,
that's what I'm praying for.

And before I forget,

I'll do my best, and heal, and more than ever, I'll be full of energy, my voice will be better than before and I'll be more cuter than...ah- no I won't lol.

NO,
you'll never get cuter (lol)
You and "cute" definitely don't go together.

But if you can still crack jokes at this time,
you're probably fine.

Still, for you right now,
the only thing I can do for you is to be your voice.

Hey

I realized.

You must have known all along.
I never forgot.

I thought I did.
But in fact, I was just afraid, wasn't I?
Afraid to go back to go back to that time,
afraid to face up to my feelings, afraid that I would lose control of myself all over again,
like I did a few months back.

Even on that day, I was afraid.
Afraid to unlock what I hid away back then.

Even now, I'm just a scaredy-cat.
The pain never lessened despite the time that passed by, did it?

Not only me,
but for the others too,
we still miss you.
There are only memories left,
and no new memories to create.

Life is so cruel.
Seems like everyone has to go through pain.
And it's always the living who suffers and overcomes (or sometimes not)

But still, I'll be here.
Crybaby, I'll lend you my shoulder when you need to cry (lol)
I may not be the best listener,
I may not say the most comforting, endearing words,
but I'll be here when you need a shoulder to cry on.

Even if the pain in our hearts doesn't subside,
we'll continue to face the future bravely.
It's a promise alright, crybaby?

National Day

1 year.

It's been exactly a year, on this dreaded day.
It's so fast isn't it?

I'm writing again, I promised you I would.

You know,
It's been 1 year.

I've moved on,
We've all moved on.

Are you happy to see us move on?

But looking back at the year that passed,
I get scared.

Because it seems like I'm slowly forgetting you.
I can't hear your voice, I can't see you.
I can't feel you.

Tell me, what must I do,
so that I can hear your voice again,
so that I can feel you by my side again.

I don't want to forget.
But maybe I'm not forgetting,
I'm just hiding it, locking it up.

You say I can face today with a smile.
But can I really do so?

3 weeks.
I've isolated myself from my best friends for 3 weeks.
As much as possible, I tried to hurt myself,
punish myself for forgetting you.

It's really stupid,
but I don't want to be happy at the expense of forgetting someone who meant so much to me.

I hate it when the whole country is celebrating.
I'm really bitter aren't I? (苦笑)
To wish for something to happen on this day that this country will never celebrate National Day again.

I'm just directing everything at,
putting all the blame on National Day.
But honestly, even if the country doesn't have National Day anymore,
it really won't take away the fact that you left us on this day, will it?
It won't take away the pain will it?

I don't understand myself anymore.

It'd hurt for you to see me like this, wouldn't it?
苦笑。

It's only been 6 months since I last wrote to you on your birthday.
Only 6 months, and I am already forgetting you.
I really am such a useless friend.
I'm such a pathetic excuse for a human being.

I'm sorry.
I'm crying again.
And I promised you I wouldn't cry.

I said I wouldn't cry, but at times I still cry for you.
1 year.
I really don't want to forget.
What must I do so as not to forget you?

Memories of that fateful day keeps coming back.
How I laughed and enjoyed myself, so ignorant of the fact that you were already gone,
How I cried when I found out,
How everything became dark in my world.
How I hated myself for enjoying myself 1 year back.

I promise you,
this day, and your birthday,
I will only keep it for you.

Sundown Festival report

Here's a little feedback from LM.C's guitarist, Aiji, after the band's first ever performance here in sunny Singapore!

TADAIMA☆


Just a while ago, we have arrived at Narita and are now in the car going back home.


By the way...the fact that here in Tokyo is hotter than Singapore, the city right on the equator...

Whaaaaaaat's going ooooooooooon!

I would get exhausted from this heat easily, but no time to get tired like that so I'll just keep on movin'☆

Really, Singapore was the greatest!

I did have totally confirmed the existence of all those fans in Singapore, so I wanna make sure to come back to do an actual live there!


It becomes one of the places where I would love to visit someday in my private time.


With like this, I surely got the sparkling memories of Singapore as well as the sunburn on my nose....it had become such wonderful days! LOL


For all those audiences in Singapore, all staffs in the event, all artists performed there, THANK YOU VERY MUCH for such splendid time!!







-Aiji.