Familiarity

Somehow, his feelings just feel...

Familiar.

I wouldn't say nostalgic,
cos no one in their right frame of mind would ever want to feel this way,
me included.

That kind of "It's nothing but a bad dream", and "He'll wake up. Definitely." feeling.

What is it called? Denial?
Sometimes denial is essential to carry on with life, isn't it?
Sometimes reality hurts so much, it's impossible to face it head-on.

But there will definitely come a day when we can overcome, look up again and walk on ahead.
That's what I want to believe.

Still, there will come a day when I'll probably lose my mind all over again.
And that day is drawing near.

I only hope,
After that day,
I can still stand strong.



You're a selfish person...
I think this is the first time I've wanted to hit you with all my might.
Even when you were guilty of doing something, I thought, "It's Daisuke so it can’t be helped," and I laughed it off and forgave you...

What happened to you?
You should have called me at the last moment, idiot.

Surely, there were a lot of hardships... sorry.
I’m sorry.

A day ago we were talking through email about your band.
You told me that you were about to make a good album.
Hurry up and let me listen to it.
You were always a clumsy and risky person... I was worried.

I don’t feel any emptiness or actual sensation. Even now, I imagine you saying, “Are you surprised? Sorry.” And it feels like you’ll just pop up and... I can’t help but feel that way.
At this point I’d forgive you, so please appear... Daisuke.

As expected, living is very hard.
From now on, I will think of things that I can do for you.

Depend as much as you want on the person you loved
and wanted to meet the most.

Please sleep soundly.

Let there be no more suffering...

Because I'm going to go meet you today (By this i think he means at the funeral)

-Kyo, Dir en Grey