P.S. I LOVE U

Been loving this song.
For some reason, I didn't really like the chorus melody at first - thought it wasn't too outstanding - but the piano intro just gripped my heart and made me put this song on repeat ever since it went on sale.

So yea.
I just had to do a cover of this.

I'll do a vocal cover soon.

But that has gotta wait cos my voice is dying on me.

Argh, flu bug you suck.

Passion

S finally made a stand.

He has been getting so many messages asking him to go back to doing music that he got fed-up (lol).
I understand that many want to hear his voice again,
to see him stand on stage and perform again.
In all honesty, I want that too.
And I still think his voice is awesome (and so does he, by the way hahahaha).

But as he mentioned,
currently he wants to focus his passion on other things instead of music.

He even received this message.

It went, "Do you like music?"

I'm sorry, but I think that's just plain rude.
You're asking somebody who has chased his dream of being a vocalist for 30 years of his life.
Surely the answer would be obvious.
He gave his all and persevered for so many years, even though he was having the hardest time of his life.
That only shows his passion and dedication to his dream.
Whether he likes music or not does NOT mean he has to continue doing music.
I wouldn't be surprised he comes to dislike music just because people are forcing it down his throat.

It's not surprising that he's seriously annoyed.
Annoyed to the point that he's putting his thoughts out point blank (like what I usually do ^^)
I'd be annoyed too, if I received such a message.

Honestly, I don't really care what he does,
as long as he's happy.
And that, to me,
is the most important thing - his happiness.
S is happy now, and it shows.
In fact, he's happier now than he used to be while doing music.
I remember all the times when he would go all depressed and say things like, "I want to die" and freak me out.
It doesn't help that my mind runs wild all the time,
so "I want to die" made me think of the worst possibilities.

Of course, fast forward years from then,
we've all grown up and matured.
I don't hear him sounding depressed anymore.
He must have been really suffocated back then.
I honestly don't mind what he does as long as it's legit (ok, fishing is legit.)
It doesn't matter if we don't earn much and never have enough money to fly across 5000km to meet each other.
There's always LINE.
And Skype.
Or Viber.

It doesn't matter if I never get my dream wedding cos we're poor people who only manage to survive on our own salaries.
I'll gladly scrape off that live Tokyo Philharmonic Orchestra as I walk down the aisle.
I'll scrape off the expensive wedding dinner at some hotel/restaurant and customized gown.
I'm willing to go cheap and budgeted as long as we're both happy.
(But then, talking about weddings is a little too far-fetched now hahaha. Won't ever happen in the next 5 years maybe)

Of course, I'm lucky (and very glad!) he respects my decision to keep on doing music,
despite what he has gone through (and still has to face from his fans).
Because he understands the importance of passion and dreams,
more than anyone else I think.
So while he never tries to detract me from my dream (and vice versa),
he gives the plain truth of the industry he quit - the good, the bad, the ugly.
He doesn't try to mince his words or cover up because he knows,
① I'd prefer the cold, hard truth,
② the importance of knowing what I'll have to face.
And also I know no matter what, he'll be there to encourage and help me through.
Cos the dream he gave up is the one I'm still pursuing.
And we know that if I succeed,
we'll be living both our dreams through me, while he pursues his other dream(s).

So I shall work hard.
Or harder I should say.
Cos now I shoulder the dreams of two people.

But even if things don't go the way I want them to,
I'll still do music (I think).
There are more ways to doing music than meets the eye.
In the smallest way, I want to keep going.

Valentine's Day

Dedicated to S (who else!?)
Thank you for that little bit of happiness and all the patience you've shown me.
I know I'm not an easy person to deal with,
but you manage to accept what even I don't like about myself.

Happy first V Day together.
Here's my V Day present to you.
Sorry it's not the usual chocolate, but then you know I hate being common.
❤❤❤

Yes, the chorus was actually the NYE's message I sang over the phone to him in public.
Talk about public embarrassment.

Translation:
Your profile is reflected in my eyes
Bathed in warm sunshine
I'm overwhelmed by feelings

I'm sorry for the pain of all those erring days, when we couldn't see each other
"Stay by my side always" I will hug the you who shed tears

Blindfolded we were always looking for the shape of love
But now with you, I will overcome everything, you and me together

Let's share both our love and sorrow

Laughter and tears

Thank you for this little bit of happiness

(I want to be) forever with you

Even if I will stray
On a long and distant path
If I look back, I would definitely find my way back
to our path

No matter where, forever,

I will never forget

Even when we're reborn, you and me
Let's promise that we will live together

The most important thing to me has always been right in front of my eyes
(I want to) embrace you

I love you and I will protect everything that we have
Through the passage of time

Let's share both our love and sorrow

Laughter and tears

Thank you for this little bit of happiness

(I want to be) forever with you

Hair color

R has been tweeting about how he wants a hair color change since last month (or last Dec?),
with something darker and not bleached-blonde-to-the-point-of-white.

Then 2 days ago, he conveniently popped a photo of his new hair color change and I started laughing out loud.

I mean,
the coincidence of the 2 of us doing the same hair color is quite lol-worthy already,
coupled with the fact that we dyed our hair in the EXACT SAME STYLE.
Hahahahaha.

Not sure if he read my mind,
or I read his,
or we just simply have telepathy.

Just to clarify,
I did my hair on 27 January and he did his on 8 Feb.
So I did not (in any way) copy him.

Oh man.
The 2 of us are simply awesome trend-setters hahahahahaha.