わくせいはくせい、もくせいもくせい

Such lame puns...

Somehow I read them again,
those puns you wrote.

And it brought back memories.
And I cried.

Promising to always keep your birthday and death anniversary for you,
yet this year I completely forgot your birthday.

I remember,
you told me these puns to make me laugh,
though most of the time I either didn't understand or rolled my eyes,
this time I smiled.

I could smile,
even though those memories hurt.
It's funny how something so beautiful,
so precious,
can hurt like hell.

But this is what you would have wanted right?
For us to continue smiling and looking ahead to the future.

But still,
even now,
I think that life was unfair to you.
Even now,
I wish I could take your place.

Even now,
I still say selfish things like "I want you back",
even now,
I still miss you.